Being sick makes you think too deeply

First of all, I realize they are all sociopaths, so lets just make that clear. This weekend, I've been stuck in bed with this illness, whatever it is. There is, of course, nothing on TV. One could have a million channels, and there still wouldn't be anything on. Unless I want to watch UFO stuff, nazi stuff, or house flipping, there is nothing on. I tried to read, but my eyes have been burning, so that didn't work too well. I think after my cheek became sore from wiping the constant tear streaming from my right eye, I finally gave up trying to read. LOL A&E was the only channel today with anything of interest. So, in the last 48 hours, I've watch The Godfather pt. 2 twice. It's an excellent movie, so I'm not really complaining. After it was over tonight, The Sopranos came on. Now, I've always accepted mob films for what they are.....Mob Films. Nothing more. They are not romantic figures that one should strive be like. They are no Michael Jordan. You may wanna be like Mike, but lets hope you don't mean Mike Corleone. I've loved the Godfather films for as long as I can remember. I knew what "go to the matresses" and "sleeps with the fishes" meant when I was 5 years old. The culture of mob films has always been one that interested me. Not because I wanted to be a part of it, but because the mafia mind fascinates me. How does an entire group of sociopaths find one another, choose a veritable Emperor, and more or less run their own Roman type empire? I remember when I was a kid, and I wrecked my Grandmother's car. I felt such horrible guilt over it, I couldn't keep up my lie for more than 6 hours. That said, how can Paulie Walnuts not feel guilt over killing someone? I've always had a bit of fascination for the criminal mind. It's not something that I can explain, I just want to understand it. Abnormal psychology, I think is what it's called.

Looking at Tony Soprano as a man, and not a sociopath, caused me to question his maturity tonight. He needed to prove to his crew that he was still in charge, was not weak, and demanded their respect. What does he do? He picks the biggest, most muscular, hot headed, kid who respected him the most, and beat the crap out of him. He turned his ring around, and beat the crap out of him. To show his status as alpha male. I rolled my eyes, and changed the channel.

When I was watching The Godfather 2, Frank Pentangeli slits his wrists in the bathtub. It was a matter of honor. I don't know what is so honorable about killing yourself, but whatever. Now, my question is, although these people are mobsters, they are still catholic, and hold true to their faith. They commit every sin there is, but they hold true to their religion. However, when Pentangeli suggests to Tom Hagen that he slit his wrists in order to ensure his family be taken care of, is he not afraid of hell? It is a major theme in Catholicism that if one commits suicide, they go to hell. I realize that these men do not fear death, or the consequences of their actions. They are, as I said, sociopaths. But, a mans religion generally trumps everything else. I read the Godfather book a million years ago when Bill Savage and I used to hang out at the library after school. I can't remember if anything like that happened in the book, and what Mario Puzo wrote about it. Probably nothing, because I'm nit picking. lol

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